Wednesday, December 31, 2008

My 8 Favorite Things of 2008

Nothing really special or magical has occurred to me last year. Yet, it enlightens me that I don't feel sad or empty about it. As a matter of fact, I'm happy of the way things are falling into places. I think its one of the better years of my life.

So to commemorate the memories and 'guilty pleasures' that kept me going and feel thankful last year, I decided to post them here. I don't feel like posting or even considering any resolution, I'll just take and make most of the things that will come by this year. I'll just hope that the goods keep on coming!

-Sony Ericsson W890-

And there I was leading you to believe that the things I'm gonna be posting here are all 'redefining moments' and the stuffs. But still, this phone saved my ass from boredom and depression, big time. As some of you might know naholdapan ako just last May. My ipod along with my phone was taken from me. I was so sad and angry because it feels as though I lost a bestfriend. I listen to music all the time and what makes me feel worse is when I recall the efforts I exerted in downloading all the 613 songs that I had there. Good thing that my parents managed to buy me this one. It wont come close to the ipod that I once had but its durability and ease of use makes up for that. Not to mention that I'm taking great photos from this one.


-Candlelighting Ceremony at SMX-

When I look back in the future with regrets that I didn't have enough guts, will and initiative to take up Sociology instead of Nursing, I would find ease and comfort just recalling this major event. It was crazy! I remember going to SMX two hours before the event to help my co-mayors set up the place. We literally placed a lamp and a candle on every 2302 seats for the students! After that I was already bathing in my own sweat but I still have to organize my classmates.

And it was all worth it. I was all smiles during the whole event even though I didn't know who it was that I was sitting next to. Add to that the way we mayors were given emphasis when we entered the hall. We entered the hall last after the students and were given applause. Hehehe. Sorry moment ko talaga yun feel ko importante ako at star ako hehehe. And I will always remember the speech given by our dean and her associate. I was surging with ecstasy and drive after the event that I even decided on being serious with becoming a nurse. Oh, well. . .

-Goverment-

I partied far more numerous times this year than all that of my previous years combined! I don't know but I'm starting to becoming a real club rat! But all of my other partying wither in comparison to my experience at Goverment, the number 1 LGBT club in Manila.

I don't know why. I just feel so at home and at ease there. You could be on your gayest ego and party wild but nobody would take it against you. Not to mention the hot, hot men there
.

-iTouch 16 GB-

I was so ecstatic when I got my hands on this one last Christmas! It was a gift from my parents. I guess they just can't say no to my constant hinting that I'm craving for one. I kinda think that I was asking too much for this, but I can't help it! The songs from my beloved phone are so hard to organize. Not to mention that I'm constantly reminded that the itouch has wi-fi while my phone doesn't. With this, I can browse and check on my site anytime I want when I'm at school! Freakin awesome!

-My Monthly Issues of OK! Magazine-

Every end of the month I would dress to treat myself at Robinsons Malate. Prior to watching a movie or looking for clothes, I would eat at Wendy's or bore a seat at Starbucks while reading a new issue of OK!. It's a hobby that I feel hard to break.

Not that I'm a sucker for celebrity trash, but wait, I am a sucker for celebrity trash, indeed. Hehehe. But not with the local show business. It's just that nacheacheapan ako sa mga issues na napapanood ko minsan sa TV. Last time I checked to see what's on at the Buzz I saw Maui Taylor ranting on how her underwear was stolen. OMG! Having known that someone is stupid enough to steal your underwear was embarassing, but to actually go to a show and tell on National TV how you feel about it is unbearable. I wouldn't want that.

What I also love about this magazine is the fashion section. This magazine is a little bit of everything. Highly recommended if you want a jumpstart for your malling.

-Veronika Decides to Die-

Its my official book of the year. I totally fell in love with this book. If I don't find Beyonce's Sasha Fierce scheme annoying, I would have named my alter-ego as Veronika.

It's just that the book really hit me hard. It's my life. I can't believe that a book that is more popular than critically acclaimed can influence me so much. Humabol nga siya eh kasi last week ko ng December siya binasa. I have Aurora to thank on lending me this book.

-Will and Grace (Season 1 to 8)-

Waaaaaah. Huhuhu. Im so missing watching Will and Grace! I have bought and enjoyed every season of it. The puns never grow old on me.

I remember waking up early in the morning during my lecture days to just prepare a handsome breakfast and watch an episode of it. It's so friggin hilarious! When summer vacation came I practically locked myself in my room to watch it from morning to night. Ganun ako na adik. I find it so hard to move on! Especially when I recall my favorite character, Karen, and all her natural humor. Watching the last episode would have been easier for me if there's a single program out there that can match it.

But there's none. Will and Grace will always be my all time favorite show!

-Alicia Keys: Live in Manila-

This is definitely my main highlight of 2008. I will never, never forget it, not even on my deathbed.

I have idolized Alicia Keys for a very long time. And I never thought, not even on my wildest dream, that I'll be able to see her perform live. True that the tickets were not expensive but I still can't believe it. It brought tears to my eyes when I listened to some of her songs that I only heard on my ipod before. It always give me goosebumps whenever I recall this wonderful night. I still can't believe it really happened as I'm typing right now.

It will go down in history as one of my most memorable moments in life.

-OTHERS-

My First Duty
It was in Bulacan. I would never forget it because I cried that day.

Ma Clara Lying-In Rotation
Hahaha. At dahil yan sa dalawang reason: Na sa first four days wala kaming ginawa kundi matulog. At pangalawa first time kong makakita ng pukeng bumubuka, if you know what I mean. Never been in my life that I was more thankful that I was gay.

Amy Winehouse: Back to Black
Literally the best album I've heard. You can check my review of it in my main page.

Dark Knight
My most favorite film of the year

Pushing Daisies
And that's because Lee Pace is so hot! And it's nice to see love at a very rare and different perspective.

Dlisted.com
The funniest website on the net where you can have your daily scoop of hollywood news.

Towerload.com
My mother site. Jan nagmumula ang mga balita ko about gay rights and news.

Akihiro Sato
Definitely the hottest Filipino model. Nanghihina ang mga buto ko sa tuwing nakikita ko ang mga billboard niya hehehehe.

BSN040
Last but not the least ang pinakamamahal kong section. I miss you all guys!


Wednesday, December 24, 2008

I Fall for a Girl

This confession is my gift and my way of saying merry christmas to you all.

"Sabi nga ni Melissa Etheridge, hindi ka naman sa sexuality or so body ng tao naiin-love eh, kundi sa soul niya," Aurora told me in a very special afternoon, as I try, in futile, to battle the emotions that suddenly surged through me like an overwhelming avalanche. Something is happening, I told myself. And with those words she said, she triggered the latch that was preventing me to comprehend what it was that I'm feeling. I, since that memorable and fateful day when I freed myself from the shackles of social standards and public perceptions, never thought that I'm gonna fall for a girl.

It's funny. Before, whenever I'm asked about what I'm looking for in a man, I'd say without skipping a heartbeat that he should be simply mature. Someone who had enough of the typical "teenage love affair" and is willing to take the chance for a serious and stable relationship. I want someone who is willing to compromise everything, even if in the end there's doubts and possibilities that he could get hurt. I want someone who's willing to take a leap of faith for the sake of loving wholeheartedly. I also seek men who are, in a way, intellectually stimulating. Someone who will not only feed your inner fiends, but someone who will make you say at the end of the day, "Heck, I got my man."

I feel embarassed with even recalling this preferences of mine. Simply because of the fact that I don't deserve someone like it.

I'm selfish. Prideful. Your typical cold bitch. I wouldn't even lift a finger to please others. I, in any way, do not allow myself to show even a hint of whatever it is that I'm feeling towards a person. Whenever I let something slips off, I would end up cursing myself and feeling bad, ashamed. You might find it crazy but it is me in the raw. I'm full of shit. I look for the ideal man in everybody, ignoring that they're human, not some clay that you can mold into whatever idea of perfection you have in mind. That's given the fact that in the first place, I think I'm not even capable of reciprocating the same devotion that I seek. I can't love anybody else because I love myself too much, to even consider the pain and the possibility of being hurt at the end. I don't deserve the man of my dreams because in return, I can't be the same ideal man for him.

So I stopped, grown even colder and in the end decided to never settle for a relationship. That's a promise that as I continue to fulfill in my everyday life, I find harder to let go. Thanks to my pride. Sometimes I watch and listen in envy as my friends showcase their boyfriends, and in the end regret feeling so after they ended up crying on how they were cheated, lied at and taken advatage of. This continous cycle of being friends, courting, being "on", seemingly endless monsaries, doubts, quarrels and break up just make my decision and beliefs more concrete. I don't want that for myself. To qoute the Dixie Chicks, "I'd rather be alone like I am tonight, than settle for the kind of love that sets before the morning light,". I would mutter that to myself whenever the 'human' in me resurface and make me feel alone and without love.

As I wander in solitude, with the invisible "keep out" line of ten feet around me, I met someone I'm going to hide in the name of Aurora. And, as a throwback to the cliche, that's where it all started. Nobody, not even my closest of friends, can make me sit in front of them for five hours to just talk like she did. No one can make me come to anybody's dorm or house and wait long to run errands like she did. No one can make me feel so happy and enlightened with my day by just listening to music together and swapping music like she did. No one can make me come with along to just buy some apartment decorations till late evening like she did. No one can make me look forward to going to school and abhoring leaving for home like she did.

How? How does a fag like me be stupid enough to cross all the lines of gay blasphemies and fall for a girl? That I can't answer. All I know is beneath her womanly body is the soul of the person that I'm looking for.

Aurora, by far, is the most fascinating person that I've ever met. Napakalalim niyang tao. I could practically unseat Paulo Coelho by taking down notes of what she's saying and turn it to a book. She's the kind of person that would make you stop and think hard with what she says. I always look like a fool and feel so unsmart whenever I'm talking to her. She commands you by the neck and will make you listen and appreciate everything she said without her even exerting the effort. And above all, I think she understands me, and nothing could top that.

It's funny because she knows it, and I didn't even tell her. She would occasionally tease me and say, "Uy naiin-love ka na sa akin!,". I would just ride on and say "Ginugulo mo ang isip ko! Bakla ako! Bakla!" to myself more than to her.

The scarier part is when I learned that she just broke up with her girlfriend (Yes, things got more complicated). Whenever we get together she would always bring up the issue about how she's hurting and all. But when I asked her why she still love her like she does, she would simply say, "Gusto kong patunayan sa kaniya na kaya ko siyang mahalin maski sa malayo lang. Kasi hindi naman mata ang gamit mo pag nagmamahal ka eh. Kundi eto," as she points to her chest. I was scared because she almost completed the descriptive aspect of the man I'm looking for. She had gone on great lengths on the compromising-and-giving your-whole department that it's sending chills down my spine. And the confusing thing, ironically, is that I'm not confuse.

Something is happening. I think I'm falling harder for her.

XOXO

Jerome

Saturday, December 20, 2008

My Take on Grammys Prediction

And the nominations are finally here!

Grammys is the sole award-giving body that I litrerally drool on in anticipation every year. Not that I don't like the Oscars, BAFTA or the Golden Globes. It's just that I'm not much of a critic when it comes to movies, for the reason why I go to movie theatre is to nourish my solitude (I'm taking the novel I'm reading now too seriously. I'll tell you about this new-found philosophy of mine later) or to have fun. Except for anticipated movies such as The Dark Knight (which I love) and Twilight (Blah) I rarely make a review out of watching.

But with music I'm so right on. I love downloading albums and make judgements on it. I don't just listen to tracks but also criticize them with respect to it's lyrical and musical content. Given that, I wouldn't pass the chance of having my own grammys prediction. Actually it's my second time to post my bets for the award. Last year my bets did pretty well and I'm keeping my fingers crossed for this year. I think I'm gonna make this an annual post.

-SONG OF THE YEAR- (Based on Lyrical Content)

Nominees

  • "American Boy" by Estelle
  • "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz
  • "Viva La Vida" by Coldplay
  • "Chasing Pavements" by Adele
  • "Love Song" by Sara Bareilles

My Bet:

Viva La Vida by Coldplay

It's too obvious that this category is dominated by this track. Coldplay really did an amazing job writing this song. I've never heard a song so diverse and deviant such as this in a very long time. Who would have thought that a song that talks literally about medieval war and crusades can turn up great and popular?

The only problem is there is this issue about the group copying the musical aspect of this song from a previous track. If they failed to settle the dispute they could end up losing. So just in case I'm putting my 'other bet' on "American Boy" by Estelle.

-RECORD OF THE YEAR- (Musical Aspect)

Nominees:

  • "Chasing Pavements" by Adele
  • "Viva La Vida" by Coldplay
  • "Bleeding Love" by Leona Lewis
  • "Paper Planes" by M.I.A.
  • "Please Read the Letter" by Robert Plant and Alisson Krauss

My Bet:

Viva La Vida by Coldplay

I kinda took this prediction thing seriously. So before posting this, I downloaded all the nominated tracks even those by singers I've never heard before just to listen to it and come up with a good guess. Hmmmm. For this track I'd still would put my money again on "Viva La Vida".

I would have loved to conform on my immediate instincts and say "Bleeding Love", for the song was so feverishly (is there a word like that?) popular and shed a new light for the emo genre. But when it comes to which song really broke new grounds I would still stcik with "Viva La Vida". As I've said the song is something I've never heard before and it would be complete travesty if it would not win, especially in this category. Now if they can really clean up their issue with the song. . .

-BEST NEW ARTIST-

Nominees:

  • Duffy
  • Adele
  • Lady Antebullum
  • Jonas Brothers
  • Jazmine Sullivan

My Bet:

Duffy

What the heck is Jonas Brothers doing in this list? They're the bitter and mediocre reincarnation of teenage pop which should have been shot on its first surface. Seriously! Those guys don't even know how to sing. And where is Leona Lewis? Are you effin kidding me? Jonas Brothers is here and Leona is not? I'm not much of a fan and I wouldn't have betted on her, but she deserves to be on this list.

Now enough of the rant. Duffy is my girl! With "Mercy" alone she proves that she is innovative and unique, a breath of fresh air. I fell in love with her on this contemporary track, but she proves that she can be more jazzy and bluesy with my fave "Warwick Avenue" and "Steppings Stone". True that she is not much of a belter and a singer who sings emotionally and sincerely, but her unique voice makes up for that lack. But whew! I can't help but feel this tingling sensation in in my brain that Adele might just bag the award!

-BEST R&B SONG-

Nominees:

  • "Miss Independent" by Ne-yo
  • "Spotlight" by Jennifer Hudson
  • "Heaven Sent" by Keyshia Cole
  • "Customer"
  • "Bust Your Windows" by Jazmine Sullivan

My Bet:

Heaven Sent by Keyshia Cole

I would have betted for Spotlight, which is my favorite. But objectively speaking I think this track by Keyshia Cole has it going, for the reason that the song is openly sincere and vulnerable. It doesn't have the smart lyrics that Spotlight has nor the cunningly way Miss Independent was described but Heaven Sent was successful lyrically in delivering its message. As I always say you really don't have to make the song too emotional and poetic to traverse a full range of emotions, which is the case with this bet of mine. It's simply written, but at the same time it's complete and understandable.

But they say that this is Ne-yo's year. I wouldn't mind at all if he wins given the fact that he both composed Miss Independent and Spotlight.

-BEST POP COLLABORATION WITH VOCALS-

Nominees:

  • "Lesson Learned" by Alicia Keys and John Meyer
  • "4 Minutes" by Madonna and Justin Timberlake
  • "If I Never See Your Face Again" by Maroon 5 and Rihanna
  • "Rich Woman" by Robert Plant and Alisson Krauss
  • "No Air" by Jordin Sparks and Chris Brown

My Bet:

No Air by Jordin Sparks and Chris Brown

It pains me not to choose Lesson Learned by Alicia, for it was so sincerely and beautifully sang that it makes me shiver. It's just that it's not much of a collaboration given the fact that all John Meyer did was do backdground and sang two lines which is 'It's All Right, It's All Right'. So I guess I would pick "No Air" by newcomer Jordin.

Jordin and Chris Browns' vocals blend heavenly on this track. I love the "give and take" of vocals that "No Air" had that the one by Maroon 5 and Rihanna lacks. I would have loved to pick any song of Madonna, but "4 Minutes" never fails to bore a hole in my head whenever I listen to it. The collaboration is just a mistake.

-BEST DANCE RECORDING-

Nominees:

  • "Give it 2 Me" by Madonna
  • "Just Dance" by Lady Gaga
  • "Disturbia" by Rihanna
  • "Ready for the Floor" by Hot Chip
  • "Black and Gold" by Sam Sparro

My Bet:

Just Dance by Lady Gaga

I had an extremely narrow way of judging this category: whichever song will make me dance my calories off most will be my bet. And Just Dance by Lady Gaga definitely did the trick, though I'm still fat.

The first time I've ever heard of this song and a lady called Gaga is when I watched Miss Universe. She sang this song during the swimsuit competition. I was kinda unsure back then for Lady Gaga look overgarbed for my taste. I also don't like her weird costume and black and white hair so I paid no attention.

But damn this song is so groovin my world even now. I never get tired listeing to it and dancing through it in my showers. This song is so on it's own league in this category. Not even Disturbia can touch this one, for I really don't think Rihanna's last single is a dance track. I just hoped that they have included a track from Kylie to spicen up the category.

-OTHERS-

I'm not much of a fan of the rest of the categories. Either that or I'm too bored. So I'll just post the nominations and highlight my bet.

ALBUM OF THE YEAR

Coldplay - Viva La Vida Or Death And All His Friends
Lil Wayne - Tha Carter III
Ne-Yo - Year Of The Gentleman
Robert Plant & Alison Krauss -
Raising Sand
Radiohead - In Rainbows

BEST POP VOCAL PERFORMANCE BY A FEMALE

Adele - "Chasing Pavements"
Sara Bareilles - "Love Song"
Duffy - "Mercy"
Leona Lewis - "Bleeding Love"
Katy Perry - "I Kissed A Girl"
Pink - "So What"

BEST POP VOCAL PERFROMANCE BY A MALE

Kid Rock - "All Summer Long
John Mayer - "Say"
Paul McCartney - "That Was Me"
Jason Mraz - "I'm Yours
Ne-Yo - "Closer"
James Taylor - "Wichita Lineman"

BEST R&B FEMALE VOCAL PERFORMANCE

Beyoncé - "Me, Myself And I" (live)
Keyshia Cole - "Heaven Sent"
Jennifer Hudson - "Spotlight"
Alicia Keys - "Superwoman"
Jazmine Sullivan - "Need U Bad"

BEST RAP COLLABORATION

Estelle & Kanye West - "American Boy"
Flo Rida & T-Pain - "Low"
John Legend & Andre 3000 - "Green Light"
Lil Wayne & T-Pain - "Got Money"
Lupe Fiasco & Matthew Santos - "Superstar"

XOXO

Jerome

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Gift from My Manita

O diba bagay kami? Walang kokontra sasampalin ko talaga hahaha!

I mentioned in my earlier post that we had a Christmas party during our last day in the lying-in clinic in Bulacan. I was kinda not digging the idea at first for I was thinking that my groupmates are pushing it too hard on enjoying the first rotation. Eh kasi naman, wala na kaming ginawa kung hindi matulog nang matulog, makinig ng music at maglaro ng cooking mama sa DS ni Badeth tapos hihirit pa kami ng party. But our CI, who I love so much because of her warmth and care, agreed happily.

So of course we decided to have the Manito and Manita. 4th year high school ata ako nun nung huli akong nagexchange gift, so I was excited. After we picked our manito and manitas (I picked Badeth) we listed our wishes. Some listed an ipod case, stuff toy, t-shirt and a muffin that has a weird name. My manita wrote for a handible electric fan. Hahaha. Kamusta naman yun she even wrote kung saan siya mabibili (trinoma! sosyal!) and she specified na dapat may energizer na battery. Being the sloth that I am I ended up not fulfilling her wish. I bought a crystal case for her itouch instead.

At dahil napakadrama-queen ko and that I like stealing the show, I decided to ask for a date! Hahaha! Some of them were doubtful about me being serious with it but I assured them. I perceived it as my chance to finally get some measure of intimacy! Tigang na tigang na ako!

So the whole week I was taunting my groupmates about it, always reminding them that by the time we arrive at the lying-in on the night of our Xmas party, I'm expecting a candle-lit dinner for two and a band of musicians to sooth us. But heck! They were giving me the hint that their planning to set me up with this classmate of ours na super epal and super presko at super acting know-it-all! So I was eating my words and telling them na maski hindi na date basta romantic yung gift. For I'd rather stay single for the rest of my fag life than be with that guy alone for even a single minute! Waaaaaaaaah!

I was kind nervous when we held our party for I had no idea who picked me and what the gift was. We bought a bucket of chicken from KFC, Pancit Malabon, Maja -courtesy of Badeth-) and bread for our dinner. We decided to hand our gifts first. We had this ritual of giving a heartfelt message and singing a christmas song as we reveal our manita.

And I was surprised that it was Kim, my classmate from last semester! I didn't even had the slightest idea about it! She pulled down this bottle of red wine and told me that when the day come that I finally had a date I should use it.In fairness bote lang yun na may panglasing pero natouch na ako. But then it wasn't the highlight, for she handed me another one. This time she allowed me to open it myself. My groupmates were telling me that it was a picture of Mr Know-it-all so I was freakin out. I slowly tore down the gift to take a peek. And it almost poked me in the eyes!

It was a cardboard with a set of pictures of Nikko, my neighbor who happens to be my crush! He's a batchmate of mine and I often bump into him at school and on my way home. Kaya lang suplado at may pagkahomophobic ata siya, so I don't talk to him (or is it the other way around?). Grabe ininvite ko siya sa friendster at 1 month bago niya tinanggap. I think the stud went on a pilgrimage first in order to find out if I'm worthy of being added as a friend. And since then, the guy became so effin cocky! He would smile as if someone is poking him in the ass (atleast that would be a normal reaction for me) whenever he sees me. Taena sarap upakan. I even remember this instance when he first saw me buying my merienda back at my home (Kilala niya na ata ako sa itsura but he didn't know na halos magkapitbahay lang kami). I just woke up from a nap so I looked all sexed up and I didn't even combed my hair nor change my clothes when I went out. And then I was crossing the street when I saw him staring at me. Waaah! I was so embarassed that I would even hide in a drum with Mr Know-itall in it!

I was really surprised for Kim really took a hell of an effort for that one. Waaaaah! Nakakiyak seryoso. Hahaha. Thanks Kim! Love you girl!

I miss my former groupmates so much, but I'm starting to like and get comfortable with my new one.

Anygays enough of this long post. I'll be uploading the pics na.

XOXO

Jerome

Monday, December 8, 2008

Goodbye, Mary Higgins Clark

It took me quite a while to quench my obsession of writing my mind and heart aloud. This week has been very busy. I was assigned to this punishingly far lying-in clinic in Zamora, Bulacan and the expenses are making my wallet weep. I have to pay Php 180 for our fair and of course I have to spend some money on food, which includes a burger combo with two large fries, a rice meal and chips that I couldn't even bring myself to share with my groupmates. Not to mention the Christmas party that we had and the gift that I have to buy for my manita (I'll be posting the pics and videos later).

No, no, no. The queen of suspense is still alive and kicking. Judging by her looks, I think she still has a decade or two to spend on pleasing her numerous fans; which for the meantime, I won't be a part of. It's just that I've grown too comfortable with her writing style that the recent novels of her that I've read didn't even move me.

I, just like with movies, read novels for the sole reason of entertainment. I don't care about the lessons and all the philosophy that some other books have, I'm after the actions, romance and adventure. Given that, it wasn't hard for me to fall in love with Mary Higgins Clark. Since I've read her novel My Daddy's Little Girl I turned auto-pilot and started collecting novel after novels of hers. I was even taken by the 10 books (which has atleast 700 pages each) of the Wheel of Time by Robert Jordan, which I loved so much because of the way it reminds me of The Lord of the Rings. I was so focused on these authors that when I had this sudden introspection, I realized that I know nothing about books at all. I don't know of Paulo Coelho, David Baldacci, Nora Roberts and Ha Jin. I don't even know that a book called Twilight exists until the movie came out and made me rant!

So I made this decision: for my next selection of books, and I mean bookssssssss, I'm gonna read from authors that I never heard of. I really like to widen my scope of reading and not only focus on the entertainment that a novel would bring, but the beauty and the world that it will introduce to me. That's why this past week I've been visiting bookstores after bookstores in hopes of finding a good start for my reading. I was intending to start with a Paulo Coelho book but I worn myself out looking for "Brida" and "The Witch of Portobelio". I was about to buy "By the River Piedra, I Sat Down and Wept" instead but I saw this really thick novel (and I love the lengthy ones) entitled "100 Years of Solitude". I was fascinated that beside the fact that it was endorsed by Oprah herself through her book club, it won a nobel prize. So I decided to buy it.

I would have loved reading the novel in one sitting, which I usually do, but it's just too expensive (It frigging cost me Php 315! My Mary Higgins books wouldn't even exceed 100!)! I can't bear wasting it in just one night so I decided to read the novel one chapter per day. Hahaha ang barat ko. Eh kasi naman di talaga ako gumagastos ng ganun kalaki sa books. Good thing that the novel is turning out great! I'll be posting the reviews later!

XOXO

Jerome

Saturday, November 29, 2008

My Top 15 Favorite Songs of All Time

I hope my friend Jansuing (can I call you that? Hahaha. . .) wouldn’t mind. . .

I stumbled upon his blog post about his top 15 most favorite songs and I was kinda inspired by it. Being such a music lover, I find it ironic that I really don’t have an idea on what my most favorite songs are. I spend half of my time in browsing the internet listening to music and watching live performances from my favorite artists. Even my friends in school would never catch me without my earphones on. When I have nothing to do at home (and it’s only because I have no money to bring myself to the mall to watch a movie or do some shopping. Hahaha) I would just get my phone (it used to be an ipod, before that faithful day in Lawton) and practically listen to the radio and my selection of songs for hours.

And I really don’t have a preference for any genre. As long as the song is good and relatable (that’s why I hate too much love song and emo songs) I’ll dig it. I could practically listen to Barbra Streisand and switch to Evanescence and then to Alicia Keys and Christina Aguilera in one sitting.

I’m an avid fan of both classical (the likes of Barbra, Janice Joplin, Shirley Bassey) and contemporary music (Christina, Alicia, Amy and Sarah Mclachlan) that’s why it was punishing to narrow down my favorite songs down to fifteen. I was able to take down 44 songs at first and they were all my all-time favorites. I was thinking leaving it as that and post it but that would be suicidal, for then I’d be writing insights on all 44 of them. I wouldn’t want that since I‘m so wordy, do I? Hmmmmm. . .

I also decided to not only focus on the lyrical content but also to the musical aspect of these songs. So they’re not actually my most favorite songs, but my favorite records.

So here goes nothing. . .

16. Come What May by Nicole Kidman and Ewan McGregor

“Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide,

But I love you, until the end of time. . .”

I know, I know. The effin post is entitled “ My Top 15 Most Favorite Songs”, but I really cannot start any musical list without mentioning this song. True that it’s not one of my most favorite songs, but it’d go down to my history as the most memorable one that even on my deathbed, with all the tracheotomy tube and colostomy bag installed in me for living such a sinfully sedentary lifestyle, I’ll smile just thinking about this.

I was in 2nd year high school when I was chosen to take a lead part in an interpretative dance to be presented to every year level (okay you may think it’s hilarious given I’m ‘kinda’ overweight. But I was ‘kinda’ thin back then!) with this theme from the movie Moulin Rouge (which is also one of my fave movie) as the music. I was not familiar with this song before, so I was in a way enlightened when I tried to listen to the lyrics. It talks boldly about love and the odds that one would fearlessly overcome to protect and cherish it. Being young, I was kinda swayed with the way love was described and embellished. Much later I learned na hindi lang pala siya ganun kasimple. Hmph I really don’t want to talk about love anymore hahaha. . .

It was after I listened to this song that I fell in love with Broadway Music. I then started to rent movies like Chicago and Evita because of it. And it’s also because of this that I fell in love with dancing. I never imagined that after we performed this song, I’d be invited to different dancing presentations and even competitions. I was even awarded with Male Dancer of the Year. Imagine? Wahahaha. I was hoping to pursuit dancing but the glutton fiend in me just took over and made that impossible.

15. I Could Not Ask for More by Sara Evans

“These are the moments I know heaven must exist

These are the moments, I know all I need is this

I found all I’ve waited for

And I could not ask for more . . .”

I just realized two things. One, majority of the songs here on my list are about love. Now that’s stupid for I really know nothing of it. Two, most of the songs (including this one. It’s track #2) are also the ones that I burned to a CD as a gift to someone. Wow. Has it really been that long since that day when I was so stupid enough to show my true feelings and hand that friggin gift to him? Hahaha. It feels great that I could talk about it now in a nice manner. All I can say is that, if in a sick twist of fate you are reading this, I am happy and have no regrets about any single thing that happened between the two of us. I hope that you could say the same for yourself. January to March of 2006 will always, and I mean always, be the happiest days of my life, so I thank you for it.

Now back to the song! Most people are more familiar with the male version, which I in turn, found fugly. I abhorred the fact that Edwin McCain made it too much of a rock song. So the first time I heard it, I really didn’t pay too much attention.

But the version of Sara Evans blew me away. She made the song country and it sounded miles better than that of McCain. Actually hers was the original version. What I love about it is that she sang it so effortlessly and clear while being sincere the whole time. And that kind of singer is hard to come by nowadays. Sara surely made a classic feat with this one.

14. Not Ready to Make Nice by The Dixie Chicks (2006)

“Forgive, sounds good

Forget, I’m not sure I could

They say, time heals everything,

But I’m still waiting. . .”

“How in the world can the words that I said

Send somebody so over the edge

That they’d write me a letter

Saying that I better

Shut up and sing or my life will be over? . .”

I’ve been a fan of Dixie Chicks since they released their song “I Believe in Love”. Given the fact that I’m such a sucker for country songs, it really wasn’t hard for me to like their easy music.

That’s why it surprised me when they released this single. This served as their powerful response to President Bush and the issue of ‘freedom of speech’. It all started when this group went to London for a concert. During the show, their lead singer went on saying, “Just so you know, we’re ashamed to come from the same country as George Bush.”

That statement angered people as well as their fans. Many of their fan sites shut down, radio stations stopped playing their songs and people stopped buying their records. Bush and his secretary issued statements about the group, saying what they said was ‘intolerable’ and an ‘insult to their country’. The tension heightened when they received a death threat, stating “Shut up and sing or your life will be over.” Because of that they have to apply strict security whenever they go shopping and performing.

All of the Dixie Chicks’ anger, hurting and frustrations were translated to this masterpiece of a song. I always get goosebumps whenever I listen intently to this one. You could hear the sincere and deep anger from the voice of the lead singer. It was like she was screaming at you and telling you that there’s no way in hell that she’s gonna shut up. This record itself was alive. It was even branded as Record of the Year by Grammys. Since in a way I’m also an advocate of my own cause, I’m happy that a group like Dixie Chicks can voice out their opinion in such a beautiful way. Unlike those homophobes who result to hate crimes. Oh here I go again.

13. Call Me When You’re Sober by Evanescence (2006)

“Don’t cry to me

If you love me, you would be here with me

You want me, come find me

Make up your mind. . .”

Evanescence is my most favorite rock band. I don’t think that any band could come close to the honesty and bizarreness of their work nor their commitment to it. If you’re gonna listen to their two albums, you’re not going to find any distinction since they always stay true to themselves when it comes to music.

Except for this record. I believe that they’ve broken new grounds with this. From the instrumentals down to the lyrics and vocals, this record is so right on. I was in first year when college when this was released and I can’t get enough of it. There’s something that I can’t figure out. It’s so magical and in a way, odd and yet likeable.

Evanescence actually means disappearing after a short time and be soon forgotten. With this record along with Lithium and My Immortal, I simply don’t think that they will.

12. Learn to be Lonely

“Child of the wilderness

Born into emptiness

Learn to be lonely

Learn to be your one companion. . .”

This song written by no other than Andrew Lloyd Webber was released when the movie version of the Phantom of the Opera hit the theatres. My mother had this collection of broadway albums ,including this one, but I never had the interest to browse them. So I really anticipated the movie version since I started having this curiosity and love for musicals (not high school musical, okay?).

The movie did not disappoint me in any way. The movie tag line “Let the Fantasy Begin” was no promotional crap, it was a promise. I really enjoyed the movie a lot. There this song entitled Learn to be Lonely was played when the credits rolled up but I never paid any attention to it.

But heck, the song was performed by Beyonce in the Oscars so I kinda got interested. Three years after, I still feel the same like the first time I heard it. Actually I consider it my ‘theme song’.

The song is simple; accept the fact that forever, you will live alone. Being gay, it wasn’t hard to relate to it. Sabi nga ni Jansuing, “Love is rare in the world of gays,”. I made peace with the inevitable long time ago. I’m not the kind of gay that still hopes that one day his knight in shining armor would come and save him. Not that I don’t believe that other gays are living in a fantasy world when they believe that they will find love. It’s just that I know I won’t.

And it’s not me being emo or sad about it. I’m happy being single. I’m proud to say that my happiness is not defined by whether or not I have someone beside me. People often laugh at me whenever they learn that I watch movies alone. I pity some of them. If you can’t enjoy the simplest wonders of life like watching a movie without your lover, what kind of person are you? I don’t know I guess it’s just me. The more I stay single, the more I feel obliged to remain one.

Anygays, I think I explained well why I love this song so much. This song reminds me to be stronger and more appreciative of even the simplest things around me.

11. Cool by Gwen Stefani

“And after all the obstacle

It’s good to see you now with someone else

And it’s such a miracle

That you and me are still good friends

After all that we’ve been through,

I know we’re cool. . .”

I looooove Gwen Stefani! Even when she was in No Doubt, I’ve already been drooling over her songs. So I was kinda sad that they broke up and Gwen started her solo career. But in the end, I’m happy that she did!

I was worried that she wouldn’t make it when she released “What are you Waiting For?” coz it’s different compared to the songs of Alicia Keys and Usher which were popular during that time. But then she released “Hollaback Girl” (which almost made it to this list!) and the whole world sang along with her. I was anticipating for another upbeat single from her when she released “Cool” as her 4th single. I liked it immediately for it reminded me of her days with No Doubt.

Now I can never relate to this song since I really cannot say I’m ‘cool’ with my past relationship. But the record is highly addictive as well as sensible, so it really became my most favorite Gwen song along with “Hollaback Girl” and 4 in the Morning”. Good thing that No Doubt is back! They’re gonna release an album early next year!

10. Beautiful by Christina Aguilera (2005)

“Words can’t bring me down

So don’t you bring me down today. . .”

My interpretation of those lines is people’s only means of hurting others is through words. And since I don’t give a damn about it, don’t bother telling me. It would take a very strong person to say that and really mean it, but in a way Christina did with this record.

I was in first year when Christina released her raunchiest video to date, “Dirrty”. Me and my friends hated the fact that she’s too trashy and that she’s trying to imitate Britney (ahhh High School). I would even change channels whenever it’s played on MTV. But when she released Beautiful, she silenced me.

I was reminded that this girl really knows how to sing so I was like, “Ok. . .”. She then released Can’t Hold Us Down and I said, “So, she got an opinion. Great. Next!”. Then I saw the video of Fighter and said, “Wow. That was really artistic. Didn’t know she can do a rock song.” She finally released The Voice Within and that’s definitely the one that made me go to Legazpi to buy her album.

I think that’s the time I really fell hard on western music, since ang bukang bibig ko lang nun ay si Regine Velasquez. I believe she proved what the true measure of being an artist is with that album. It’s all about accepting what you are without the need of other people’s approval. And ever since, I became her no. 1 fan. Hahaha.

Beautiful breaches boundaries and is close to my heart kasi may pagka gay anthem siya. I love how this song is so relatable to everyone. I do believe that lyrically, it’s one of the greatest songs of our time.

9. All I Ask of You by Barbra Streisand

“Say you share with me one love, one lifetime

Let me lead you from your solitude

Say you need me in your arms always

\ Anywhere you go let me go too

That’s all I ask of you. . .”

This was originally a composition of Andrew Lloyd Webber for the Phantom of the Opera. Barbra Streisand, the diva that she is, really made a great job turning this song to a less musical and to a more of a ballad song.

My fascination with everything that is Regine lead me to become a classical lover. I remember buying her album “Songbird Sings the Classics” and even though it only contains 16 tracks, it introduced me to a vast and beautiful domain. It was then that I started browsing for ‘ancient’ songs from Carpenter, Bread, Shirley Bassey,, ABBA (I’m so gay!) and my fave, Barbra Streisand.

I begged my mother to buy me an album of her entitled Essential which was a greatest hits album. I was so enthralled with every tracks. Seriously! I would always open our audio component every morning as I prepare myself for school just to play it, for my day wouldn’t be complete without doing so. I ended up memorizing some of the notable songs there such as “Piece of Sky”, “Guilty”, “Don’t Rain on my Parade”, “What Kind of Fool am I” and “Woman in Love”. But one that would stand the test of time for me is “All I Ask of You”.

There’s so much love and passion with both the song and how Barbra sang it. One’s heart can be taken away just by listening to it. My heart was. It even made me cry a couple of times. It’s so enlightening to forget all about the hardships in falling in love and focus on what you really feel towards that person. Impossible to do that, isn’t it? Well maybe that’s the thing that made this record exceptional. Why can’t love be so simple just like it is in the eyes of the composer?

8. Try by Nelly Furtado

“And I see you standing there

Wanting more from me

And All I can do is try. . .”

This track is perhaps the exact negative to my other fave song All I Ask of You. Meaning, it talks about reality.

I love Nelly Furtado as a Balladeer, not so much as contemporary singer. I don’t know what Timbaland did to make her sound good with her new songs, but her voice and character stood out more in her songs “All Good Things Come to an End” and “In God’s Hands” from the album Loose compared to her more upbeat songs. But nevertheless, I’m a fan. I just love the fact that she’s the one composing her songs. I think that’s the reason why she does well in singing them.

“Try” talks about how one’s heart and devotion to a relationship can wither down when his/her partner is never contented with what he/she gives. I think it’s highly observable today. It’s so ironic how easy it is for us to forget what we really loved about the person in the first place, so much that we would ask more from them. It’s like, a relationship I believe should work on both ways. It’s good to cite out some flaws so that you can work it out. But if you keep on noticing more faults than good things, then I think it’s time to go. For you can never actually achieve what you completely want from your partner without damaging the relationship. Your partner is a person in her own right, not a molding clay that you can shape to whatever idea of perfection that you have in mind. Hmmmm. What was I posting again? I think I should entitled this post as LOVE GURU. As if naman. . .

7. God Bless the Broken Road by Rascal Flatts

“Every long lost dream

Leads me to way you are

Others who broke my heart

They wee like northern star

Pointing me on my way

Into your loving arms . . .”

First of all, this is not a gospel song. I recommended them before to some of my peers and they’d say that they want none of it for they’re not much of a Godly person. Which I found rude, actually. I mean what is so wrong with listening to songs about God? Not that I listen to it, mind you.

This song would have ranked higher if I only considered the lyrical contents for my list. For just reading the lyrics would make you either sigh out of love or puke in disgust, depending on how you did with your exes. I puked, if you should know. But sometimes, you don’t really need to experience things just to connect with songs like this. All you need is to empathize.

The first time I heard this was when it was sang by Carrie Underwood in American Idol. I was like, “What the hell did she just sang?”. I wasn’t really much of a fan of hers for I was rooting for Bo Bice. But when she released her album, I fell in love with many of her songs. Her song “Wasted” almost made it here.

I remember browsing youtube for her songs when I come across her live performance of this “Bless the Broken Road”. I listened to it and and I barely noticed that I was playing it over and over again. I was making out the lyrics. I then downloaded the complete song from Rascal Flatts and also the lyrics and it made me stop, think and let the whole message sink in. It’s nice how a composer can deliver a song with such depth without going to the verge of suicidal, like some. Hahaha. I wish I had someone to sing this song to. Wahahaha. Ano ba talaga Jerome? Akala ko ba masaya kang maging single?

6. No One by Alicia Keys (2007)

“I know people will try

Try to divide something so real

So till the end of time I’m telling you that

No one can get in the way of what I’m feeling. . .”

This is the newest of the singles I have here in my list. I know that some people had enough when it comes to listening to it, but that’s the problem. I just can’t have enough of it.

It’s funny because DJ Mo Twister and I share the addiction for this song. I listen to his show in Magic 89.9 every morning and he would always play this. I can’t blame him. This song is simply powerful. I think that the fact that the lyrics are so simple is the reason. Because of that, many people can relate to it. They can interpret it in ways unimaginable. This song was actually written by Alicia for her sick relative while it was interpreted by most as a love song. That’s what’s beautiful with this kind of songs. The composers leave something to the imagination. Why bother with songs that are deep in words when you can’t relate with it at all?

I remember when we went to Alicia’s concert here in Manila. It was the highlight of my year. I was so stunned when I see her walk through that stage. Coz the Alicia Keys I know is the singer I hear in the radio and the superstar I see in the music videos and movies. Alicia Keys in the flesh? I wasn’t actually prepared for that. And it was so good to hear her live. I have no other way to explain it. When she sang “No One”, she was kinda surprised that people were singing along with her. Haaaay! San bumalik ulit siya.

And now to my top 5 songs.

5. Running by No Doubt

“We’re running, keep holding my hand

And so we don’t get separated. . .”

One of the many songs that made me cry a lot of times. I blame it again to the simplicity of the song and the sad, sad way Gwen sang it. Her vocals brought the lyrics to a new level.

This is by far the best record from No Doubt along with Underneath it All (which ached my heart when I had to remove it from my list.). And it was actually written by Gwen herself and was released as their last single.

The song, for me, is about friendship. This is actually my song for my best friends: Netz, Cams, Kates and Riz. I would always end up thinking about them when I listen to it. Just listening to the lines, “And I’m so sorry that I’ve fallen, help me up let’s keep on running,” is enough to pool tears in my eyes. Every fall that I’ve experienced, from the time I spent to recover with counseling and even to my complete withdrawal from social life, my friends didn’t leave and we would always pick up where we left off. No matter how much I neglect them and take for granted what they offer with their friendship, they would always understand. They focus on the reasons why the friendship is worth keeping, rather than focus on negativities. You don’t get to be with companions like that all the time.

4. Take A Bow by Madonna

“All the world is a stage

And everyone has their part

But how was I to know which way the story goes

How was I to know that you’ll break my heart? . .”

“You took my love for granted why, oh why?

This show is over say goodbye. . .”

I believe that Rihanna’s song of the same title was derived from this one. They could have exerted a little effort in making it original by thinking of a new title. The version of Rihanna is so similar to that of Madonna when it comes to the song’s message.

Given the fact that I’m gay (I’ve been whoring it out for two years. Got to make up for time lost when I was in my old dirty little closet), it’s very much predictable that I’m a fan of Madonna, even though I acknowledge the fact that she can’t sing. It’s just that, like Christina after her, she never cease to reinvent herself when it comes to music. She always have something tuck away that would blow away even her oldest fans. You’ve got to respect those kinds of artists. Some of her notable songs for me include “Rain”, “Ray of Light”, “Nothing Really Matters” and “I’ll Remember”. But when it all comes down to it, “Take a Bow” is her best record, yet. Actually it’s her last single that topped the Billboard Top 100.

I really have no special connection with this, for the reason it’s on my top 5 is because of it’s distinctive and smart lyrics (that’s before Rihanna copied the entire concept). Though I’m not much of a fan of Madonna’s vocals, I really think that she did a great job singing this. This is the kind of song that you won’t need the likes of power houses such as Whitney and Mariah to enjoy, for the song speaks for itself. Madonna’s mellow and monotonous voice proved as an advantage in the musical aspect of this record. Actually it used to be my most favorite song. Since as I’ve shown from my previous songs that I’m more appreciative of simple lyrics (and that’s not because my level of comprehension is limited), it’s just predictable that my most fave Madonna song is this.

3. By Your Side by Sade

“If only, you could see into me. . .”

Simply the best love song that ever seen the light of day. I was actually surprised that the people from V Channel also thinks so. All love songs will wither in the face of time, but this song will linger on.

The first time, and I mean the first time, that I’ve seen the music video and heard of this song, I actually cried. I don’t know if it’s because of the sad, hopeful aura of the video or Sade’s way of dancing towards the city. Hearing this song was actually the first time I’ve learned of Sade. I later downloaded some of her songs such as “Somebody Already Broke my Heart” and “King of Sorrow” from her album Lovers Rock. She’s kinda eclectic, you can’t actually narrow down her genre nor her way in composing her songs and making her music. It’s just that her scope in music is so wide.

What I love most about this song is Sade’s overwhelmingly yet simply sincere way of singing this song. I cannot help but drown to her voice. It’s the heavenly midline between happiness and grief. It’s both peaceful and sorrowful. I don’t know but her distinctive voice really surfaced in this song. The fact that the lyrics was so simple yet the song was delivered the best way possible really made me a fan. Sade’s voice carried this song to new heights. Too bad that she’s not making music anymore.

2. Fallen by Sarah Mclachlan

“And it only lights up morning

And the wounds that would not heal

It’s the bitter taste of losing everything

That I’ve held so dear. . .”

Long before the coming of the emos, Sarah Mclachlan was already singing about sorrows, fears and darkness. She’s the incarnation of both what you now call emo and gothic, though she might not look the part. For sometimes you don’t actually have to put mascara or cover your other eye with your hair to carry the message. Just sing the damn song the way it’s supposed to be sang.

I remember the afternoon when Nenette and I were doing our science project and this video of Sarah Mclachlan entitled “Fallen” was played. She went on raving on how beautiful the voice of Sarah is. I on the other hand was kinda indifferent, yet curious. My preference during that time was narrowed down to contemporary and popular music. I downloaded the song and was taken aback by the ‘breath of fresh air” that Sarah has. I wasn’t actually familiar with her kind of music, yet I instantly fell in love with it. I think she is the reason why I became appreciative of artists that are not that popular but are extremely talented, like Amy Winehouse and Norah Jones.

Some of her greatest songs (included in her album Closer) include “Building a Mystery”, “Adia”, “Sweet Surrender”, “Angel”, “World on Fire” and “Answer” but “Fallen” will always be my first love. It is the complete song translation of what I felt when I was in counseling and when I was eliminated in the science oriented class back in high school. I also love how Sarah shifted from voice to falsetto in singing this song. Her voice is simply angelic that it’s so ironic that she sings mostly of tragedies and failures like in this one. The lyrics on the other hand is deep but didn’t fail to be relatable. Sarah really proved with this that aside from the fact that she’s one heck of a singer, she’s a good writer.

Now to my Number 1 song of All Time

"I hear the clock, it's six a.m.
I feel so far from where I've been
I got my eggs and my pancakes too
I got my maple syrup, everything but you.
I break the yolks, make a smiley face
I kinda like it in my brand new place
I wipe the spots off the mirror
Don't leave the keys in the door
Never put wet towels on the floor anymore' cause

Dreams last for so long
even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you.

I called my momma, she was out for a walk
Consoled a cup of coffee but it didn't wanna talk
So I picked up a paper, it was more bad news
More hearts being broken or people being used
Put on my coat in the pouring rain
I saw a movie it just wasn't the same
'Cause it was happy and I was sad
It made me miss you oh so bad 'cause

Dreams last for so long
Even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you.

I go about my business, I'm doin fine
Besides what would I say if I had you on the line
Same old story, not much to say
Hearts are broken, everyday.
I brush my teeth and put the cap back on
I know you hate it when I leave the light on
I pick a book up. Turn the sheets down.
Take a deep breath and a good look around
Put on my pjs and hop into bed
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I try and tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight 'cause

Dreams last for so long
Even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon I know you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you

Yeah.... You were meant for me and I was meant for you."

You were Meant for Me by Jewel

I typed in all the lyrics for I want to accurately point out why I love this song most. I am a fan of songs that are simply written yet carry a great message. And this song is the embodiment of that preference of mine.

As I’ve said, you really don’t have to experience the same thing as the composer did to relate with him, for you can always empathize. I’m the kind of music lover who spends hours listening to music. I could weather that because as I listen to songs, my mind flies as I create stories in my imaginations that are related to the song. It might sound crazy and weird but I sometimes even cry doing that. And no other song made my mind soar highest than this classic feat of Jewel.

The fact that this record was country made me fell even harder for it. The song talks about how a person honestly acknowledge that her life is empty and monotonous without the love of her life. And how that person holds on to a mere spark of hope that one day her lover would return, on the concrete belief that simply, her lover ‘was meant for her’. The song also talks about how the person had tried to carry on and improve herself, but it all amounts to nothing without her lover beside her. It talks about how her dreams and hopes for herself and her lover are still there despite the fact that they had broke up. It’s about continuing to live up the broken relationship despite the fact that it’s long dead.

This song interprets love in it’s rawest. It talks about reality. You could actually see, if not relate for yourself, this kind of setting in the lives of people around you. We all try hard to move on after a failed relationship, but sometimes what we had with our partner just feel so good and seem so right, that it made you believe that you are really for each other. What I also like is Jewel’s simple yet appropriate vocals. She actually has two version of this song, but I like the more sorrowful one better.

1) You were Meant for Me - Jewel

2) Fallen - Sarah Mcalchlan

3) By Your Side - Sade

4) Take a Bow - Madonna

5) Running - No Doubt

6) No One - Alicia Keys

7) God Bless the Broken Road - Rascal Flatts

8) Try - Nelly Furtado

9) All I Ask of You - Barbra Streisand

10) Beautiful - Christina Aguilera

11) Cool - Gwen Stefani

12) Learn to be Lonely

13) Call Me When You’re Sober - Evanescence

14) Not Ready to Make Nice - Dixie Chicks

15) I Could Not Ask for More - Sara Evans

16) Come What May - Nicole Kidman and Ewan McGregor

Wow. Hahaha. I never thought that I’d make my longest post ever out of this one. I realized that all of these songs definitely have one thing in common; I always listen to them. And even if I listen to them all the time doesn’t matter, for I always feel the same emotions.