I was Nearly Killed

I was a bit hesitant in posting this, for I really don't wanna talk about it. It just makes me feel awful. But I guess you don't get close to being killed that often, so I I'll shoot it.

It happened last night. It was 2 in the morning and I was boring a hole on my bed while watching the series finale of Will and Grace. I got a bit hungry (now that's a lie. these past days I eat as often as I can that I forgot how being hungry feels) so I set out for that 24-Hour walk-in store that's quite a walk away from our apartment to buy some food.

Everything seems normal (I always got to that store to buy myself something to eat) and my mind was really wandering as I walk my way home. Suddenly I heard this loud shot (nothing gun-like) and inches across my eyes I saw something blue pass from my right side. When I turned to look what it was, I saw what seems like a golf ball-sized pellet ball bouncing towards me. Whatever thing was used to launch that was so strong that the pellet actually made it's way towards me. If I made a few more step or in a way was walking fast-paced, the thing would have hit my skull. I panicked and walked fast. I even barely realized that I was running already.

I didn't saw whoever launched the damn pellet, but I'm a hundred percent certain it's the group of teens I happen to walk past by, whom I didn't see on my way home. I really didn't take it seriously when I got home. But when I told my brother about it and he said that it was a "sumpak", an improvised gun, and it would have surely killed me, I kinda freaked out. I was more worrried than angry that there are people out there who would kill or play with others' lives just because they are on their high or just because they go on a tripping. I kinda pity them.

But they have to get a life damn it! My parents would have cried rivers of tears long after I'm gone. And my nephews and nieces! I bowed that I'm going to be the one who'll send them to college! And my friends! And of course, the countless men who would have missed a humungous part of their lives if they wouldn't lay their eyes on me (I'm trying not to take this seriously)! Looosers!!!

XOXO

Jerome

P.S.

There's this idea that has been toying with my mind when I woke up. Would it have been possible that those teens knew I'm gay? And that they're homophobic enough to kill one in their high? Hmmmm. Just the mere thought makes me more outraged. . .