Oh Crap. . .

I think I might have bited more than I can chew, or swallow, whatever terms that would not suggest any meaning aside from what I'm intending to post will do.

I am so screwed (not that 'other' connotation again, mind you)! Aside from the fact that my new group laid the final decision that we will indeed do a movie instead of a stage play for our report, I have to submit a feature article and editorial for my application for LAMP before Friday!

Unbelievable. Why is it that when everything seems so right something will happen that would mess everything up! Just when I finally had the opportunity to fulfill my wet dreams of being a LAMP staffer (thanks to Henzen and especially to my Hero Jan Suing. Ayiiiiiii hahahaha!), my group decided to shoot for a movie! And we had to do it this tuesday for we would be presenting them next week for our Community Development!

I was hoping so hard that before it's too late my groupmates (the majority of them) will somehow wake up and realize that they're making the biggest mistake by choosing to shoot a movie! For waking up is the only way. You cannot possibly consider that kind of surreal decision in reality! Or am I the only one who's getting in touch with the waking world? Grrrr! Now it's too late. We have to make a movie out of the concept of Western Beginnings. I just hope that by tuesday our group would be able to handle it. For the damn grade's sake I hope so!

And it's a shame that we can't meet on same grounds. Part of the group (which I belong to) were thinking of innovative ways of making the scenes (we're making a god damn movie! we have to improvise!) and the others would go on saying that we should make everything simple for given that we're nurses and not masscom students, our professor won't expect perfection. The exact point! We don't have to be so engaging and excited that we'd choose to make a movie for we're not directors nor editors nor actors! We're friggin nurses! Suddenly I miss taking vital signs and charting my patients. Life was so simple. Why do we have to make things so complicated?! (Avril??? Are you there???)

And the requirements for LAMP! Wow. I'm seriously taken a back and nerve-wrecked. I was so confident while I was making the draft early this morning for the feature article. But when I showed it to my brother (he's a masscom grad of FEU), he went on saying that what I was making was a raging editorial article! I was so perplexed. He went on discussing how to make a feature and I was like, what was I thinking? I was so vocal and cocky that I wanted to enter LAMP and I don't even know what a friggin feature article is.

But no, no, no. I'm not gonna give up. Not when I'm inspired. Fortunately I managed to figure out what to do. I'm gonna do an interview for my feature article instead. I hope Mam Guarino would agree for one. Gosh I think that would be suicidal for it's considerably difficult to put that through paragraphs without ending up with a nursing assessment-like format, but I have no choice. I'm gonna submit the issue about the IN patch being worn by freshmen already (my suppose to be feature. Imagine? Tanga ko!) for my editorial. Damn it I have to do this while juggling my lecture schedules and shooting! Grrrrrr!

Good luck na lang sa akin. I'm gonna need it!

XOXO

Jerome