I Come into Your Folds Again

To Adia

I was wrong to have left you astray, unnourished, and unappreciated. I forgot, because of my lapse judgement, that it had always been you and me, and even if its like that, I had always been happy. I always had looked and enjoyed at simplest joys of life. I never needed anyone else. For you were always there from the moment I leave my empty room to the time I find it empty again when I come home.

I realized that I delve into the greatest complication in life, something that we both knew we had to avoid, but because of my desire to change and try something, I didn't even perceive its potential toll on me. I was so happy at first with Adelaide, but we both knew that we're heading somewhere hopeless and uncharted. We knew so little, but that didn't even scared us, in fact, it made us curious. It made us yearn for the peculiar warmth that we didn't even hold back in pursuing it. We thought we could continue doing it happily.

But we were completely devoured by our lust for it. We grow inhuman as we continously bathe in its light and glory. I grow worrisome and ugly by the day, that I can't even look at myself in the mirror. It was the same thing we experienced with the coming of that gypsy, we grew selfish and hungry.

I forgot to appreciate my life as it is. I allowed myself to let a person be the center of my world. Which was something you knew was disastrous, for above anyone else, you're the one who lived in me the longest. You know ever inch of me, all of my hopes and dreams. And you know of my selfishness. I hear your laugh as I fight this trait of mine and try to convince myself that I could give myself without wanting something in return. You knew it was impossible. But I wanted to prove you wrong, I wouldn't want that kind of life for myself. I don't want to be self-centered. I don't want to be alone.

Yet you proved me wrong again. For as I once yearn for Adelaide, I know yearn for you. I wanted to have the endless sea of pride and dignity come rushing through me again. I so long to ravel on it. I wanted to be the same old lone wolf that I was, that I will always be. I longed to listen to our song, the one that reminds us that we should learn to be our one companion. That we should never dram that out in the world there are arms to hold us. Though I shiver at the thought, your mere presence makes things seem right.

I cannot promise you anything. Adelaide will be in a deep slumber but I know she would be awaken again. I'll never put an end to that possibility, knowing her now. But we will be happy, this I promise you, for a very long time.

It's time to regain our dignity and pick up the pieces.

I now step forward. This is our battlecry.

From

Jerome