My LAMP Debut

All I can say is that I'm happy, very happy indeed that a feasible proof that I'm oficially a writer of our Institute had finally surfaced. For the mere thought of being in LAMP is too much for my small brain to comprehend. I need visual stimulations to convince me.

Anyway I'm just glad that it finally came out. I was worried that I'll never get my hands on it. The 2nd issue of LAMP for school year 2008-09 was distributed the same time our grade slips were handed out. And I'm proud to say that I'm one of the moving force behind it. When I say moving, I mean literally moving boxes that contain 400 copies of the issue on my shoulder from room to room.

Gosh I remember being so exhausted that day that I decided to just bail out in helping my peers (wow peers talaga. kafal!) .I was so hungry and bathing on my own sweat, not to mention that I have no one to talk to. It's just that the people there can be a bit intimidating, especially the 4th year edboards. I just decided to focus on my work like they never existed.

I was fortunate enough to be entrusted in writing two articles. The first one was about how students from other Institutes perceive nursing students. It was very fulfilling. I feel like a true journalist as I approach students to interview them. True that in the end product I'm sharing the spotlight(I'm getting cocky na) with three other writers, but they used my introduction and conclusion. Fair enough. Hehehe.

The second one was about the Victometer. Now it wasn't actually assigned to me. It's just that this writer ended up making a feature instead of a news article for the headline, so one of the editors decided to hand it over to another staff. And that's where I came in. Hehehe. Super papogi points ako sa mga edboards. It's just that given the fact that I'm a newbie, I felt this need to show my commitment. After all, I was accepted to the organization the easiest way possible. I need to prove that in a way I was worth it.

Everything was going fine the day the issue was distributed when I was texted that there was a grave error about the Victometer article. I was in cloud 9 at that time and it just made my whole world turn upside down. The goal of Batch 09 is placing 3 student in the top five, 5 student in the top 10 and a 90% poassing rate. I overlooked it and typed one student in the top 3 instead. How could I have been so stupid? Gosh I hate myself for fucking over my first task! I hate it that I have to learn this lesson the hard way.

Anygays there's no reason to belittle all of my good efforts just because of one mistake. All I can say is that I'm so delighted for the opportunity that I got. I'm getting my articles framed, ganun ako nabaliw nung nakita ko siya. Hehehe. Seriously, I'm getting it framed because there's this huge possibility that I'm gonna leave the organization.

It depends on whether or not I'll prove worthy of being one of the editorial boards. As much as how I love any form of writing, I had always dreamed of having my own editorial column. I don't actually like writing news for it so limit it's writers. I wanted to be able to express my opinion and beliefs openly. I would kill to see that happen. I think it's the reason why I joined LAMP in the first place. I don't think I can learn and grow if I'm just gonna be a senior writer. Saka I don't have friends there. I need to be in a position where hindi ako kukuyugin. Hehehe.

But I think it's impossible. All the odds are working against me. Even if I get a high score in the exam that the edboards are gonna give us, the question of me deserving a spot is still there. I'm a newbie, no background experience in writing ( and that's because Ive only been passionate in writing since second year), does not or did not belong to a pilot class (for they're keen in asking us who belongs or belonged to a pilot class before. hmmm), have no friends (except for Henzen. love you!), and I committed a mistake on my first task! Add to that the adviser of LAMP have not seen me yet. And I bet that the first thing he would say to me when we finally meet is how pity it is for a new member like me to make a mess out of a headline news! I wanna hide na.

I would have just go on and quit LAMP like any sane person would do, but I decided against it. I'm no quitter. I might as well throw myself before a moving LRT like what that girl on TV did than turn my back on an opportunity just because there's a less possibility of winning.

Good luck sa akin. I just hope that I'll end up being in the LAMP. I'm really starting to like it there.

XOXO

Jerome