Bad, bad things are bound to happen. It's funny because you can give up a part of you for the sake of making things run smoothly and yet you'll end up being fucked behind.
People, people, people. Why are they all conniving to make me hate every living thing in this damned earth?! What have I done to deserve this shit? I've never stepped on anybody, taken advantage of them, bully them or lie to them and then this?!
It's so hard. I'm cracking under pressure and my emotions are getting the best of me. I've tried so, so hard to be tolerable and reliable to people but what do I effin get? It's not sunny every day of the fucking week, I know that. But this crisis is going too far. Papatay na ako ng tao.
What is so wrong with me that people would actually not choose to see me in a better light? What have I fucking done to not deserve the truth? What is so wrong with choosing to create bridges rather than destroying them? What is so wrong with being honest with myself? What is so wrong with wanting for more?
What is so wrong with me? What is so wrong in trusting me? What is so wrong in being with me? What is so wrong in telling me the truth? What is so wrong with loving me?
I don't deserve this. Wala akong ginawang masama maski kanino. Someone tell me kung meron. Naiiyak na ako.
Why would people choose to belittle my worth? I feel so worthless and unappreciated.
Grabe. They can go on. Lalamig din ang puso ko sa kanila.
XOXO
Jerome
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