I remember that back when I was in grade school, I've always wondered how and what I will be when I reach the age of my older siblings. I've always admired them, for they seemed to have a definite idea on what they want to do with their life. My sister got pregnant at an early age while my eldest brother started a family of his own when he was 18. During that time people seemed to be mature and at the same time aggressive with their decisions in life.
A decade later, I find myself now facing a monitor after watching Sorority Rows with my friends. I don't have a boyfriend, no one got pregnant and I think I'm putting enough efforts in my study to keep my future on track. A lot could be said when it comes to my maturity, but still, even though I've made a lot of mistakes, I wouldn't have my life any other way.
I'm turning 21, and those two digits are scaring me. There are so many things that I want to accomplish. I want to have a good-paying job after graduation. I want to practice nursing. I want to study Sociology. I want to go straight to Japan to earn money fast. I want to get to New York and work there as soon as possible.
For the past years, those plans and dreams have stayed on the back of my head. Now, they're slowly surfacing. The pressures of being gay and being the youngest child is wearing me down. But I won't be made useless by these. I have trouble deciding on my priorities, but I guess having a lot of things to choose from is better than having nothing to decide on.
Now I just want to bury that worrisome side of me and just celebrate on my being materialistic. Hehehe. Out of the five wishes that I had last year, 4 of them came true. You can't blame me, really. I gave all of my wishes a year to be fulfilled. But now, I'm kinda optimistic on my wishes. 
1. Kipling Wallet
How much it cost: Php 3000
How I intend to get it: My next sweldo in our group's paluwagan. But having it as a gift will be very nice.
Why I want it: Thanks to my bona fide shopaholic friend Badeth, I was ingested to a world where eyes only favor products that are branded. The little monkey toy that hangs on every product of Kipling is slowly becoming an obsession of mine. Whenever I come across a Kipling boutique, I would really swallow my pride (it's a shop for women) and browse on items. I don't know but it always makes me happy and alive (that was so gay), like what the egg tart and smart alec at Breadtalk do. I managed to convince my father to buy me a Kipling shoulder bag and I'm so at ease whenever I wear it at school. I lost my wallet last summer and since then I only have my two pockets to rely on. Damn, I always get a deduction in my NCM classes because I always forget to bring my 1x1 ID pic. Having a wallet will help me become more organized. I have high hopes for this one.
2. Kipling Reading Glass
How Much it Cost: Php 4200
How I intend to get it: My savings, for I think it's kinda weird to have a reading glass as a birthday present.
Why I want it: It's not because I want to look smart or something. My hobby of reading novels has taken it's toll on my "almond eyes" (with reference to my guru Lowell Silang). I'd rather carry one everyday than wear contacts. And it wouldn't hurt at all if it's Kipling. Really, it wouldn't hurt at all.
3. Regine Velasquez Memorabilia
How Much it Costs: ???
How I intend to get it: I'll start collecting CD's and posters next month. I'll give it year I guess.
Why I want it: I will always be a Reginian in heart. I realize this when she launched her Reigne/Songbird Perfume under Bench. It's been a long time since I've been updated about her so I got very excited when I saw her billboard for the perfume. I even dragged my classmates at Bench just to test them.
I've been a fan of Regine since grade 5. Since there were no iPods and Limewire during that time, I always turn our radio on every morning and wait for her songs to be played. I would even lock myself in during Sundays just to watch her sing in SOP. I can even remember myself as this obsessed fan who always defend her whenever his classmates say bad things about her. Heck, I've seen all her movies and practically memorized most of her songs. So it's quite fitting for me to immortalize somone who influenced my taste in music. Top in my priorities are the following:
a. Songbird Sings the Classics (CD, I've lost my copy of it back in high school)
b. Reigne (CD, It's the last album she released where all songs are original. I'm looking for the limited edition)
c. R2K (CD, It's her most successful album. Lost this one too.)
d. Covers Volume 1 and 2 (CD, Hindi na kasi gumagana yung copy ko nito. Hehe)
4. Sony Ericsson SATIO
How much it costs: Php 40,000+
How I intend to get it: I'll sell my phone and iTouch. Maski katawan ko ibebenta ko mawahakan ko lang to. Hahaha.
Why I want it: I'm a techie whore. There, I've said it na. I don't think that there's any gadget out there, espcially products from Sony Ericsson and Apple, that I don't know of. What I found funny is that when I bought my new phone, I didn't need any information about the cellphones. I know them by heart. From their megapixels down to their specs, I kow them. I could even make any salesclerk from Sony Ericsson a run for their money.
It's friggin 12.1 megapixel. If that won't make you stretch your allowance and join every paluwagan, then I don't know what will. Aside from the fact that it boasts a wide array of features that are somehwat similar to that of iPhone, critics are already branding this one as the first real "iPhone Killer" since Samsung's OMNIA. Its touch screen makes this phone a perfect substitute for any camera, for you can focus on any image with just a click.
I'm kinda nervous putting it here on my wishlist. I'm really starting to dream that I'll somehow lay my hands on it the moment it's released this October.
5. Boyfriend
How much it cost: I sure wish that I don't have to pay to have one.
How I intend to get it: I don't know, but I guess loosing weight is one. Finding a way to stop my hairline from receding also sounds good. Injecting endorphins (for Sir Rueda said kulang daw ako nito) to make myself look younger? Could be. But definitely not Malate!
Why I want it: I could really forgive if he only bears a slight resemblance with Brandon Routh.
I accomplished my "Ultimate Goal" last May so I'm on to my next step: put myself in a stable relationship. I think that this is the first time that I have to admit that I want someone special in my life. Notice how I used the word "want" instead of "need". I think I've been with myself long enough. I want to experience how it is to be in another person's warm embrace again.
I hope that my 2-year streak of fulfilling my wishes continue this year, especially with this one. Ako na lang ata ang bakla na nagsisine sa Rob Malate na ang kasama ay hindi boyfriend! Kaloka no.
